Story Structure — 5 Plot Phases
Life Outside the Self
Hudson experiences ordinary routines as if he were an outside observer. After smoking too much marijuana, his sense that nothing is real intensifies, and he is diagnosed with depersonalization disorder.
Key Events
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Detached Daily Routine — Hudson moves through daily routines as if observing his life from outside. Characters: Hudson Milbank
Location: Everyday surroundings
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Cannabis Intensifies Detachment — After smoking too much marijuana, Hudson's sense that nothing is real intensifies. Characters: Hudson Milbank
Location: Unspecified
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Diagnosis of Depersonalization — Hudson is diagnosed with depersonalization disorder. Characters: Hudson Milbank
Location: Unspecified medical setting
A Meeting and New Connection
Tom helps Hudson function and pushes him to attend an important job meeting. Hudson becomes briefly alert when he sees Sara, secures the work, and grows drawn to her despite Tom's warning about his past fixation.
Key Events
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Tom Steps In — Tom helps Hudson get dressed and tries to keep him functioning. Characters: Hudson Milbank, Tom
Location: Hudson's home
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Push Toward the Meeting — Tom pushes Hudson to attend an important job meeting. Characters: Hudson Milbank, Tom
Location: On the way to a job meeting
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Meeting Sara Harrison — Seeing Sara briefly makes Hudson alert, and he secures the work. Characters: Hudson Milbank, Sara Harrison
Location: Job meeting
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Tom Warns Hudson — Tom warns Hudson that a previous fixation on a woman cost him work. Characters: Hudson Milbank, Tom
Location: Unspecified
Hope Entangled with Fear
Hudson and Sara grow closer, and her desire for a lasting, caring relationship moves him. His fear that he will burden her leads him to try to protect her from his problems, putting their connection at risk.
Key Events
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Hudson and Sara Grow Closer — Hudson and Sara grow closer as she shares what she wants from a lasting relationship. Characters: Hudson Milbank, Sara Harrison
Location: Unspecified
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Fear of Becoming a Burden — Hudson worries that his condition will burden Sara and that she will leave. Characters: Hudson Milbank, Sara Harrison
Location: Unspecified
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Attempts to Protect Sara — Hudson tries to protect Sara from his problems, threatening their relationship. Characters: Hudson Milbank, Sara Harrison
Location: Unspecified
Searching for Help
Tom encourages Hudson not to give up, and Hudson learns about changing negative thinking from a cognitive behavioral therapist. His doubts persist, but he receives an opportunity to join Dr. Simon's study.
Key Events
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Tom Encourages Another Meeting — Tom urges Hudson not to give up and encourages him to meet another woman. Characters: Hudson Milbank, Tom
Location: Unspecified
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Cognitive Behavioral Advice — Hudson meets a cognitive behavioral therapist and learns about changing negative thinking. Characters: Hudson Milbank
Location: Unspecified
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Study Opportunity — Hudson receives an opportunity to join Dr. Simon's intensive study. Characters: Hudson Milbank, Dr. Simon
Location: Depersonalization study
Answers Still Out of Reach
Hudson undergoes repeated tests and blood draws while remaining preoccupied with Sara and the possibility that he damaged their relationship. Dr. Simon confirms his diagnosis and explains that the cause and cure are unknown, leaving his recovery and relationship unresolved.
Key Events
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Repeated Study Tests — Hudson undergoes repeated tests and blood draws while worrying about Sara. Characters: Hudson Milbank, Dr. Simon
Location: Study setting
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Cause and Cure Remain Unknown — Dr. Simon confirms the diagnosis; Hudson remains hopeful but without a clear answer. Characters: Hudson Milbank, Dr. Simon
Location: Study setting